Tonite:

I just wanna...

wrap my legs around u & squeeze real tight

whisper in your ear everything's all right

kiss you in places you've never been kissed

lay in bed all day with you and reminisce

?????

I wish I had the ability to create new words that no one has ever heard of but could just understand the moment they hear them because I'm sitting here thinking and everything is blurry and all I can do is reach into the nothingness of the air and reach for words. 

In bed this silence is surrounding me and I am swimming inside the thoughts in my head while thinking if only I had the right words. The exact words to formulate the perfect synthesis of sentences to make everything that is crammed inside of my head make sense.

Words that could express the exact way I am feeling inside and out. Words that could liberate me and give me an astounding sense of new found freedom. Words that will make everything that is chaotic become calm. Words that will make time stand still and have everyone listen. Words that will roll of my lips and float in the air or land on the lines of these empty pages. Words that will evoke expression on blank faces. Words that will make the heart skip beats while racing. Words that will make all things possible. Words that will cure all ail and make peace tangible. 

Words... 

Where are you?

Why am I up?

Just up. Clothes on. No plan. No purpose. 

Just up. Late night. Early morning. Sitting here. 

Just up. Inside out. Not good. Not bad. Just up.

Thinking

Breathing

Feeling

Wanting

Planning

Needing

Some sleep.