Mental Anguish...

The bottom of the deepest darkest hole is where one can find a place where less sleep happens and more thinking than the human body should allow occurs in the depths of your mind as you can't help but think about how on earth did you ever get to the place where nothing else in the whole entire world mattered but the present problem at hand and how are you ever going to concoct the remedy to cure the ail of aching in your soul when words aren't available and things are so scattered about your mind that dots cannot be connected to make sense of the tragedy that is playing out on the stage of your life where you are the protagonist and have just drank from the poisonous vile and your lying there watching yourself deteriorate into absolutely nothing because you can't grasp what exactly is happening and all you really want to know is, how in the hell did I get here?