"Outta Control"

Somehow I managed to get myself

into the most uncompromising predicament

allowing my feelings to lead me to indifference

about a situation that I knew I should have steered clear of

but the flutter of the butterflies had me hypnotized

made me slip and  F

                                         A

                                                L

                                                     L

           into a trance like state where nothing 
even matters at all

as inhibitions began to become nonexistent

I felt myself smiling on the inside

something I'd been missing

and laughing out loud

as my mind began to give my body permission

to be open to the kisses that were placed on my shoulder,

neck, back, and wrist from the most perfect lips

I'd ever had the privilege to kiss... 

Now I'm here wondering if my words have been mis-understood

or my body language mis-read

or was too much said

as I lay here in bed

and wish that he were here

instead of this empty space of nothingness

that could never compare to his face on my pillow

or the scent I know he'd leave behind... 

If only I could rewind

I'd take back my sanity

trade in this chaos

and go back to doing

whatever it is I was doing

before our lives

had the most amazing opportunity to

collide.